Posts tagged prayer
Posts tagged prayer
Who is Joseph Smith?
If there is any fast way to understand the origin, the history, and the passionate membership of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (otherwise known as the ‘Mormon Church’)… it is through this short film starting with a 14 year old boy in 1820.
Stephanie Nielson, survivor of a near-fatal plane crash, shares her story of a beautiful life centered on faith in Jesus Christ and love of family.
I can’t explain how much hope and strength this girl has given me in the last few months. I wanted to share this experience with anyone who would hear her story. You can also read her blog here
I googled the number for a suicide hotline the other night and cried.
I was crying because of how many backs are turned in my family.
I was crying because of how many backs have been turned in my family.
and I was crying because I was terrified of how many more backs will turn in the future.
I was especially crying because I didn’t plan to kill myself
and just needed someone to talk to.
At what point is it okay for me to have an emotional collapse and beg my friends to listen to me? I don’t have anyone else right now but my friends, and they’re not here. I’m so afraid my burdens will scare them away, and then I’ll have no one.
I need to take it to Heavenly Father. I need to curl up in a ball with my hands together, and cry for help. Pray for guidance, comfort, and understanding. I’ve been trying to ignore my past, but the present is filled with so much harder stuff, and it’s all becoming hard to bear.
This time, I can’t leave and find a friend to keep myself pre-occupied. I have to face this on my own for the next two weeks until I get back to school. I have to learn to be alone in the healthiest most productive way possible… and it’s hard not to dwell on the structure of my family and how it’s effected my life. It’s hard not to compare myself and my family to others, not to believe that I’ll always be alone, and it’s hard to find a morsel of hope that someday I’ll find that love and security elsewhere in this life.
It is a nonsensical, embarrassing and unfair dream… but sometimes I wish that friends could be as permanent as a family is. I wish they weren’t a privilege that came and went with the tides of life.
I wish I could be guaranteed that I’d never be alone…
and I know that this is possible through the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.